It been a long time

Wow, it been a long time I didn't blog... today I was too boring staying at home and surf around the net. In the end, I decided to blogging.

All this while I was so busy as usual... study, assignment, exam and internship. This coming week will be my last week of internship. Next month will be my results coming out. Now, I'm un-officially or partially a graduates. Honestly, I would rather to rest and play around first before start back to the working worlds I belongs to. Unfortunately, my parents not allowed. Huh~

My friend is getting married next month. Huh~ What a surprise that dating not even half year. Just few months need to get married already. All it is because she is pregnant. She have no choice.

Chinese New Year will be in 2 months times. Brother Kevin will be back soon. Can't wait to meet him again. Coz February 8th is his birthday. Can celebrate with him again before he back to Su Zhou again. Was wondering when he want to stay there until.

This 2 weeks my results will be release soon. I'm praying hard that I able to get through. Now I'm hoping there is miracle happen. I trust miracle very much.

Experiencing last minutes work

Its been few months I didn't blogging... coz as usual I was very busy and now its super busy. I'm doing my final year project - thesis... and this is the most headache, stressful and complicated work. huh~

This is the 1st time I experiencing studying last minutes for final exam. Normally I won't do that... this semester because of my thesis. So, its drag me to study in so last minutes. What is the lesson is, it is stressful that you know you not enough time to prepare well and its makes you so stressful.

Next semester is my last semester in University. I hope everything will be alright. Coz I don't want to stay in University anymore.

Until now, I need to stop here.

Stop!

STOP! Can you stop disturbing me with your love life? Don't tell me yoour story, don't ask me question. I really fed up of that. I know you too well. You are the one want to ask but don't accept people opinion and easy to get angry.

I don't really like your boyfriend actually. I honestly tell you. But, I know you sure not happy. That's why I decided to keep ot.

Please! I'm really tired and hard to breath. Just let me alone and live peacefully can?

Don't forget that the guy is you choosed not me. How well you know him? Try to ask yourself... How long you know him, you definitely you know. You want to accept him is your problem. Don't come to me ok???

Long Time

Wow... it has been long time since last i blog. Maybe i was too busy... haha... ya... i was busy.

New semester started one month. That month i was superb busy. Coz I was in my final 2nd semester. Which means that i'm starting with my thesis. At the same time, I got to attend all the workshop that had prepared for us. And in the same semester, we still have our class to go on... I got 3 subjects, 3 assignment, 3 mid-term, 1 presentation, 1 thesis proposal, 3 final exams and most importantly now also doing some process of finding job-training company and getting apporval and etc for november. Huh~ some of you might think that wa.... so many things... are you crazy? No.... I'm not crazy and I don't want to be like this. Is the uni want to be like this. Damm stress~ huh~

I have a friend of mine start dating with a guy that she don't even know for long. They just know each other and the guy fall in love with her. And she accept him without thinking too much. But, sad case is, she even worst after accept him. She always look for me and ask this ask that, called me accompany her find the guy. What la... is your own boyfriend and you know that his life is like this, what for you angry with, and that's your boyfriend, why want to to accompany you go find him? Don't want accompany you, you don't go. Then blame on me... what la you? Please la... think maturelly ok? You are so childish after accept him. As you know that how busy I am now. Please!!!

Iphone

I want Iphone since last month. But, sad that I'm poor. Not enough money yet. So, I got to wait until I save enough money in order to get one.

Daddy become so naughty. He got one. Me and my brother so jealous about it. Ish~ daddy so bad... get one for himself, not sponsoring me also although he know that I wish to have one!

Grandma again

Grandma is in hospital again~ This time is because of her leg.

She was complaining that her leg is pain and cannot walk. My aunt send her to hospital and the doctor said she need to stay.

Heard from my mum said that, her leg maybe is because last time she fall down and affected. The bone is crack and its makes her leg become pain, "zhong" and makes her can't walk. Now she got to stay in hospital for two weeks to help her make her bone straight back.

I saw the video that my aunt posted in facebook, my heart is so painful when I saw her leg was bandaged up in order to pull the bone straight.

Hope grandma recover soon and hope nothing is happen to her again~

Time past so fast

Nowadays don't know why I felt that a lot of things happen around me I thought not long time ago... but, actually its happened few years ago... Huh~ Time really past so fast...

Hopefully I can graduate by end of this year. Joined this University in year 2008. Now already year 2010. So fast~ I can see a lot of changes in this University as well. I also changed too... Hehe...

So scary

This few days don't know why there's so many cockroaches appeared in my house. It was so scary... Its appear almost everyday... huh~ I hope that its won't appear again... dear all cockroaches, please go to other places... PLEASE!!!!

What is this world?

I was so angry this few days. I'm thinking that why I always think of people first then I only will think about myself? When can I only change it to I think about myself first only think of other people?

Why I felt that suddenly is because, normally when people need help, come and look for me, I'll said ok. I helped them. But, when I need help, look for this people, they sure have a lot of reason and say no. What is this?

Maybe I should said no to them even I can help them next time. Let them know what is that feeling is when you really need help and there's nobody willing to help out.

Although you guys will said I was too bad. But, I have no choice. I'm not the Tammy before this. I have changed. Changed to more cruel. Learn to say no. Learn to be bad. Why? Before this, Tammy is a person who willing to help, good girl, always say yes. But, she always will being bully by others. Let others to take advantage. But now, I learned a lot of things that I can see it very clearly. That's why I changed now. I mentioned again.... TAMMY HAS CHANGED.

Feel surprise

Wow.... I'm so surprise today. Yesterday after I ended my class, when I on the way from Block C to Block B, I saw a guy looks like my ex-tuition teacher I keep in touch with. Then I just walk forward and he suddenly turn back. Is really is him and I just called teacher. He said hi. After that I was wondering why is he here?

Today, I surf around my uni webpage and browse to the staff name list. Unbelievable, he is the staff here. He no more in TARC. Huh~ He is associate dean of a new course i think. Is school of mathematics and actualrial science.

First time when I joined UCSI I met Ms Lee Kim Lian who is my ex-lecturer in Flamingo College. Now is my ex-tution teacher.

Grandma

Grandma was not feeling well since before Chinese New Year. She having vomit. But the vomit is sometimes she really feel want to vomit. Sometimes she purposely make out. During Chinese New Year when we in Ipoh, I saw her don't want to eat. Just drink. But sometimes she don't even want to drink. She just said don't feel like want to eat. Even medicine she also refuse to eat.

After we back to KL. Mum keep calling back to Ipoh everyday to ask grandma condition. She is ok. But today, suddenly aunt called and told us that grandma in hospital. She got to stay for check up and put on drips because of she keep vomitting and refuse to eat and drink.

Before Chinese New Year, Mum already said that we got to prepare. Touch Wood said that, grandma will go anytime. And now, mum ask aunt to find place, prepare this, prepare that in case grandma one day pass away.

When I heard that, I really scared. Maybe I selfish. I don't wish this to happen this year as this is my final year in Uni. A lot of stuff need to busy with. And the most important things is, I hate the sad feeling. It will make me cry. I hate this feeling very much. I don't really hope that this day will come.

Please! Grandma, please listen to people can? Take good care of yourself please.... we all don't wish you to see you like this....

Emotions

Can anyone please tell me why we must go through all the emotions? I hate the emotions that make me sad. I don't like sadness. Can we only have happiness?

2 more days to go, brother kevin is flying back to SuZhou again. Kind of missing the day we gather together.

I don't care you guys say I'm naive, ancient, silly or no matter what adjectives you guys give, I still want to ask this question. In this world, is there still true love, a long long time and never separated from love? If the answer you give is no, why? Why people only care once owned before?

Felling sad...

Yesterday night when I'm going to sleep, don't know why the sad feeling came again... Is the same feeling when the first time brother kevin flying off to SuZhou. Is the same feeling what I felt yesterday night. The feeling once again make my tears drop out again. I'm not dare to let my parents see it. I just stay in my room, quietly let my tears to drop. After 10-15 minutes, I'm ok. The feeling is gone. But, still have a bit.

I hate my tears drop, coz after that my eyes will be very tired. Then will fall asleep very easily. But the next day, I still feel that my eyes very tired. But sometimes, its really hard to control my feeling. Maybe is because I'm not me before this anymore. I'm changed. Following the time goes, we will change. And I don't know why I change until like that. Can I be back myself before this? I missed the time when I'm young.

Danger

I was thinking back, before Chinese New Year, I was so sick until vomit. That was so danger. Why? Coz I almost will admit to hospital. Vomit can't stop after spending RM 235 (consulted 3 times doctor). And its 2 days before Chinese New Year. Lucky in the end, doctor gave me a medicine that after I took will be very sleepy and control my vomit. Phew~ in the end, I recovered 1 day before Chinese New Year. Although the first few days of Chinese New Year I don't dare to eat so much of things that I shouldn't eat. What I can eat I also will ask daddy first. Luckily... and it was so danger I think back. Really... almost celebrate my Chinese New Year in hospital. Huh~

I'm sick

Right after the next day that I have attended god brother birthday party, I started vomit, diarrehea and have high fever. This condition already went through 3 days. Huh.... was so suffering with vomitting. Went to consult doctor 3 times, spent RM 235 in total. Some more send blood for checking see is it kena denggi. Phew~ Lucky the result out is nope.

When a sick people sick, the most cham things is, nobody at home to take care of you. I was so cham that time. Lucky dad will try to spend some time home to see me is it ok a not. That's why I love my daddy so much. What I hate the most is, when I'm sick that time, whole body no energy. Sleeping and resting in the room. But the house phone keep on ringing. What the... I was so tired and no energy still got to walk out to answer phone. Haih~

Anyway, now is already over. I'm recovering... Thank God. I can celebrate my CNY in good condition.

God Brother Birthday

Just came back from god brother birthday. Erm... We ate Jogoyo Japanese Buffet. Quite fun. Food nice. But sad that I was full before I started my dinner there. Eat quite little. Haiz... And I also feel sad that because I'm sick, make me can't eat a lot of things there... Huhuhuhu... Nevermind, at least I felt quite fun with Brother they all there. Hehe...

Random

In the end, the person I hate resigned in the end. Next month onwards I don't need to see her and suffer. Muahaha...

Brother came back. Miss him so much... hope can celebrate his birthday with him this time. Every year didn't do that.

Semester started. Will be very busy as I'm in 3rd year liao. Huh~

Just back from Port Dickson Trip. The trip consider ok.

After Chinese New Year, will be having new phone. Hehe... can't wait liao....

Chinese New Year coming, so what? Can't really enjoy. Coz why? Coz of my mid-term exam will be start right after the 3rd day of Chinese New Year. Haiz... during Chinese New Year got to do revision, got to rush assignment as well. Haiz...