Grandma

Grandma was not feeling well since before Chinese New Year. She having vomit. But the vomit is sometimes she really feel want to vomit. Sometimes she purposely make out. During Chinese New Year when we in Ipoh, I saw her don't want to eat. Just drink. But sometimes she don't even want to drink. She just said don't feel like want to eat. Even medicine she also refuse to eat.

After we back to KL. Mum keep calling back to Ipoh everyday to ask grandma condition. She is ok. But today, suddenly aunt called and told us that grandma in hospital. She got to stay for check up and put on drips because of she keep vomitting and refuse to eat and drink.

Before Chinese New Year, Mum already said that we got to prepare. Touch Wood said that, grandma will go anytime. And now, mum ask aunt to find place, prepare this, prepare that in case grandma one day pass away.

When I heard that, I really scared. Maybe I selfish. I don't wish this to happen this year as this is my final year in Uni. A lot of stuff need to busy with. And the most important things is, I hate the sad feeling. It will make me cry. I hate this feeling very much. I don't really hope that this day will come.

Please! Grandma, please listen to people can? Take good care of yourself please.... we all don't wish you to see you like this....

Emotions

Can anyone please tell me why we must go through all the emotions? I hate the emotions that make me sad. I don't like sadness. Can we only have happiness?

2 more days to go, brother kevin is flying back to SuZhou again. Kind of missing the day we gather together.

I don't care you guys say I'm naive, ancient, silly or no matter what adjectives you guys give, I still want to ask this question. In this world, is there still true love, a long long time and never separated from love? If the answer you give is no, why? Why people only care once owned before?

Felling sad...

Yesterday night when I'm going to sleep, don't know why the sad feeling came again... Is the same feeling when the first time brother kevin flying off to SuZhou. Is the same feeling what I felt yesterday night. The feeling once again make my tears drop out again. I'm not dare to let my parents see it. I just stay in my room, quietly let my tears to drop. After 10-15 minutes, I'm ok. The feeling is gone. But, still have a bit.

I hate my tears drop, coz after that my eyes will be very tired. Then will fall asleep very easily. But the next day, I still feel that my eyes very tired. But sometimes, its really hard to control my feeling. Maybe is because I'm not me before this anymore. I'm changed. Following the time goes, we will change. And I don't know why I change until like that. Can I be back myself before this? I missed the time when I'm young.

Danger

I was thinking back, before Chinese New Year, I was so sick until vomit. That was so danger. Why? Coz I almost will admit to hospital. Vomit can't stop after spending RM 235 (consulted 3 times doctor). And its 2 days before Chinese New Year. Lucky in the end, doctor gave me a medicine that after I took will be very sleepy and control my vomit. Phew~ in the end, I recovered 1 day before Chinese New Year. Although the first few days of Chinese New Year I don't dare to eat so much of things that I shouldn't eat. What I can eat I also will ask daddy first. Luckily... and it was so danger I think back. Really... almost celebrate my Chinese New Year in hospital. Huh~

I'm sick

Right after the next day that I have attended god brother birthday party, I started vomit, diarrehea and have high fever. This condition already went through 3 days. Huh.... was so suffering with vomitting. Went to consult doctor 3 times, spent RM 235 in total. Some more send blood for checking see is it kena denggi. Phew~ Lucky the result out is nope.

When a sick people sick, the most cham things is, nobody at home to take care of you. I was so cham that time. Lucky dad will try to spend some time home to see me is it ok a not. That's why I love my daddy so much. What I hate the most is, when I'm sick that time, whole body no energy. Sleeping and resting in the room. But the house phone keep on ringing. What the... I was so tired and no energy still got to walk out to answer phone. Haih~

Anyway, now is already over. I'm recovering... Thank God. I can celebrate my CNY in good condition.

God Brother Birthday

Just came back from god brother birthday. Erm... We ate Jogoyo Japanese Buffet. Quite fun. Food nice. But sad that I was full before I started my dinner there. Eat quite little. Haiz... And I also feel sad that because I'm sick, make me can't eat a lot of things there... Huhuhuhu... Nevermind, at least I felt quite fun with Brother they all there. Hehe...