Grandma again

Grandma is in hospital again~ This time is because of her leg.

She was complaining that her leg is pain and cannot walk. My aunt send her to hospital and the doctor said she need to stay.

Heard from my mum said that, her leg maybe is because last time she fall down and affected. The bone is crack and its makes her leg become pain, "zhong" and makes her can't walk. Now she got to stay in hospital for two weeks to help her make her bone straight back.

I saw the video that my aunt posted in facebook, my heart is so painful when I saw her leg was bandaged up in order to pull the bone straight.

Hope grandma recover soon and hope nothing is happen to her again~

Time past so fast

Nowadays don't know why I felt that a lot of things happen around me I thought not long time ago... but, actually its happened few years ago... Huh~ Time really past so fast...

Hopefully I can graduate by end of this year. Joined this University in year 2008. Now already year 2010. So fast~ I can see a lot of changes in this University as well. I also changed too... Hehe...

So scary

This few days don't know why there's so many cockroaches appeared in my house. It was so scary... Its appear almost everyday... huh~ I hope that its won't appear again... dear all cockroaches, please go to other places... PLEASE!!!!

What is this world?

I was so angry this few days. I'm thinking that why I always think of people first then I only will think about myself? When can I only change it to I think about myself first only think of other people?

Why I felt that suddenly is because, normally when people need help, come and look for me, I'll said ok. I helped them. But, when I need help, look for this people, they sure have a lot of reason and say no. What is this?

Maybe I should said no to them even I can help them next time. Let them know what is that feeling is when you really need help and there's nobody willing to help out.

Although you guys will said I was too bad. But, I have no choice. I'm not the Tammy before this. I have changed. Changed to more cruel. Learn to say no. Learn to be bad. Why? Before this, Tammy is a person who willing to help, good girl, always say yes. But, she always will being bully by others. Let others to take advantage. But now, I learned a lot of things that I can see it very clearly. That's why I changed now. I mentioned again.... TAMMY HAS CHANGED.

Feel surprise

Wow.... I'm so surprise today. Yesterday after I ended my class, when I on the way from Block C to Block B, I saw a guy looks like my ex-tuition teacher I keep in touch with. Then I just walk forward and he suddenly turn back. Is really is him and I just called teacher. He said hi. After that I was wondering why is he here?

Today, I surf around my uni webpage and browse to the staff name list. Unbelievable, he is the staff here. He no more in TARC. Huh~ He is associate dean of a new course i think. Is school of mathematics and actualrial science.

First time when I joined UCSI I met Ms Lee Kim Lian who is my ex-lecturer in Flamingo College. Now is my ex-tution teacher.

Grandma

Grandma was not feeling well since before Chinese New Year. She having vomit. But the vomit is sometimes she really feel want to vomit. Sometimes she purposely make out. During Chinese New Year when we in Ipoh, I saw her don't want to eat. Just drink. But sometimes she don't even want to drink. She just said don't feel like want to eat. Even medicine she also refuse to eat.

After we back to KL. Mum keep calling back to Ipoh everyday to ask grandma condition. She is ok. But today, suddenly aunt called and told us that grandma in hospital. She got to stay for check up and put on drips because of she keep vomitting and refuse to eat and drink.

Before Chinese New Year, Mum already said that we got to prepare. Touch Wood said that, grandma will go anytime. And now, mum ask aunt to find place, prepare this, prepare that in case grandma one day pass away.

When I heard that, I really scared. Maybe I selfish. I don't wish this to happen this year as this is my final year in Uni. A lot of stuff need to busy with. And the most important things is, I hate the sad feeling. It will make me cry. I hate this feeling very much. I don't really hope that this day will come.

Please! Grandma, please listen to people can? Take good care of yourself please.... we all don't wish you to see you like this....

Emotions

Can anyone please tell me why we must go through all the emotions? I hate the emotions that make me sad. I don't like sadness. Can we only have happiness?

2 more days to go, brother kevin is flying back to SuZhou again. Kind of missing the day we gather together.

I don't care you guys say I'm naive, ancient, silly or no matter what adjectives you guys give, I still want to ask this question. In this world, is there still true love, a long long time and never separated from love? If the answer you give is no, why? Why people only care once owned before?