Felling sad...

Yesterday night when I'm going to sleep, don't know why the sad feeling came again... Is the same feeling when the first time brother kevin flying off to SuZhou. Is the same feeling what I felt yesterday night. The feeling once again make my tears drop out again. I'm not dare to let my parents see it. I just stay in my room, quietly let my tears to drop. After 10-15 minutes, I'm ok. The feeling is gone. But, still have a bit.

I hate my tears drop, coz after that my eyes will be very tired. Then will fall asleep very easily. But the next day, I still feel that my eyes very tired. But sometimes, its really hard to control my feeling. Maybe is because I'm not me before this anymore. I'm changed. Following the time goes, we will change. And I don't know why I change until like that. Can I be back myself before this? I missed the time when I'm young.

Danger

I was thinking back, before Chinese New Year, I was so sick until vomit. That was so danger. Why? Coz I almost will admit to hospital. Vomit can't stop after spending RM 235 (consulted 3 times doctor). And its 2 days before Chinese New Year. Lucky in the end, doctor gave me a medicine that after I took will be very sleepy and control my vomit. Phew~ in the end, I recovered 1 day before Chinese New Year. Although the first few days of Chinese New Year I don't dare to eat so much of things that I shouldn't eat. What I can eat I also will ask daddy first. Luckily... and it was so danger I think back. Really... almost celebrate my Chinese New Year in hospital. Huh~

I'm sick

Right after the next day that I have attended god brother birthday party, I started vomit, diarrehea and have high fever. This condition already went through 3 days. Huh.... was so suffering with vomitting. Went to consult doctor 3 times, spent RM 235 in total. Some more send blood for checking see is it kena denggi. Phew~ Lucky the result out is nope.

When a sick people sick, the most cham things is, nobody at home to take care of you. I was so cham that time. Lucky dad will try to spend some time home to see me is it ok a not. That's why I love my daddy so much. What I hate the most is, when I'm sick that time, whole body no energy. Sleeping and resting in the room. But the house phone keep on ringing. What the... I was so tired and no energy still got to walk out to answer phone. Haih~

Anyway, now is already over. I'm recovering... Thank God. I can celebrate my CNY in good condition.

God Brother Birthday

Just came back from god brother birthday. Erm... We ate Jogoyo Japanese Buffet. Quite fun. Food nice. But sad that I was full before I started my dinner there. Eat quite little. Haiz... And I also feel sad that because I'm sick, make me can't eat a lot of things there... Huhuhuhu... Nevermind, at least I felt quite fun with Brother they all there. Hehe...

Random

In the end, the person I hate resigned in the end. Next month onwards I don't need to see her and suffer. Muahaha...

Brother came back. Miss him so much... hope can celebrate his birthday with him this time. Every year didn't do that.

Semester started. Will be very busy as I'm in 3rd year liao. Huh~

Just back from Port Dickson Trip. The trip consider ok.

After Chinese New Year, will be having new phone. Hehe... can't wait liao....

Chinese New Year coming, so what? Can't really enjoy. Coz why? Coz of my mid-term exam will be start right after the 3rd day of Chinese New Year. Haiz... during Chinese New Year got to do revision, got to rush assignment as well. Haiz...

Nothing...just revising...

This 2 months while having term breaks, I went to worl. Really busy working everyday. When I'm back to normal alone, I think of so much of things. Happy moment we somebody, with club, in office and etc.

But, there's one things that I don't understand is, why this world have politics? In club, in office and etc. This person don't like this person and etc.

Recently, I felt that I changed. I start feeling boring going out with some people in the group that I don't really want to go out with, I start to feel that being alone was good. I'm not saying about partner. Just saying about friends. I'm starting say "NO" to others when I really can't help them. I don't really know this is call cruel or bad. Is just that I know that my limit is where until.

Now, I felt that home for me is quite and safe place for me. At outside world, is noisy and dangerous. When I'm young that time, I love to go out and have fun. Maybe is because now old liao. Hehe... sometimes people said they are old I laugh at them. Now I saying about it. Is true. When you get older, you will feel more tiring.

I'm different in different places. When with friends, I'll be very crazy. When I'm alone, I'll be very quite. When I wiith best friends or partner, I'll be serious.

This days I also found that, no matter how many hours I slept also feel tired. Huh~ panda eyes also coming out liao.... so scary...

I'm starting to miss the days when I'm young. Today went to macd. Saw a grandpa brought 3 of his grandson go macd. It's make me think of my grandpa also. So sad that he was not in this world anymore. :'(

Own responsibility

Aren't people suppose to be responsible on their own job, task that had given or assign to them? Why this people always ask people help them to do their job that are not that person should do? Guys, please! Do not takes things for granted. Each people have their own things to do and time to rest. If the person can help then is ok. But when people tell you no then please do not force that person. YES means YES, NO means NO!