Missing brother

Huh~ Suddenly missed brother so much... I mean my god brother in China. I'm missing the days e went out for yum cha, dayswe went to night market, miss the dayswe at college. Huh~

Don't know how's brother there. Miss malaysia food? Miss his family? Miss his friends? And etc...

The lecturer

The lecturer was sucks. Although he actually indirectly helping us to pass this subject and need us to hand in our proposal and assignment in a very short period, we know that he want to settle our marks fast so that we know how many marks we got to pass for the whole subject. But he just sucks la. Details don't give properly. Sometime like this, sometimes like that. Haih~

Is she ok?

Huh~ what I said last time already become true. Is she ok? Why she want to be like that? I really don't undersand. Why she don't understand always come to me? Don't she know that I didn't take up this kind of post before? She should go ask those people that took this post before ma.

Haih~

Huh~

Yesterday after dinner, me & my parents sit down talk about mine & my brother childhood day. Really felt happy that time. Coz a lot of sweet memory during childhood. Nothings to "fan", nothing is unhappy.

After that chat, we prepare to go out, dad said he felt very hot. (After a heavy rain, normally we won't felt hot). He suspect will have fever. We ask him to go consult doctor due to the virus nowadays. He said don't need. Can eat some own fever medicine. Dad not listening to our advice. Huh~ so naughty.

Brother said nevermine la, we can take care him one day but can't take care him for the whole life. I know what my brother means. But, I don't hope that dad leave us. I know there's will be one day our parents will leave us. Everyone will die one day. But I don't wish that happen. I can't afford to face that.

Let it be or put it down?

Yesterday night before I'm going to bed, I was thinking of something. Something that I tried to not to think and make decicion about.

Now. I was thinking to let it be or to put it down. If I let it be, I don't know what's the conclusion will be, how long can I don't think about it anymore and how I make the decision. If I put it down, will I feel sad?

Its a hard decision for me. But now, I really don't know which way to choose.

:(

Semester Started

Well, new semester had started last week. This week is the 2nd week. Most of the lecture started this week. There's a subject lecture started last week. This lecturer is too hardworking. Hardworking until give us a lot of coursework to do. Honestly, until today, I still haven't finish yet. Is too much and those question makes my brain stuck. Huh~ and the most important things is, my timetable full like... where got extra time? Sleep also not well already...

One of my subject is divided into two class (business student and non-business student). Thank god that this lecturer was smart. She ask who want to switch to the non-business group lecture? I sure want to switch, because the business group lecture was too big, not enough place to sit, air-cond also not enough. Some more we got to squeeze into a classroom. If I changed to the non-business group, less people, more air-cond, more sits and the most important is, we in the auditorium. Haha...

Yesterday night is another night that I can't sleep well again. A lot of nightdream appear. I dream of my coursework, I dream of got to spent money to buy books again, I dream of all my colleague in Elken, and etc. Haih~

When I only can get a good sleep? Help~

The Happiest Day I have currently

Last Sunday (3/5), went dinner with my ex-elken friends. There are Ms. A, Mr. A, Mr.B and Mr.C. This gang is the most happy gang I ever met. They can be very crazy all the times and make the place is the most noisy table.

This is the 3rd time I join them. Can't believe that this time I join them I can laugh out as much as I can and its from the heart. Huh~ Do you know that I really long time didn't laugh until tears out stomach pain. Really didn't experience it for a very long time. Thanks guys. Wish to have next round with you guys again...

Reached home at 10.30pm. Switch on my laptop. Connected to the internet. Shoot! What happen to my Internet Explorer? Click in, homepage out, then want to click into my Uni portal, can't click in. Even want to click anything from the hompage also can't. What happen? MSN can click, desktop also no problem.

Called Mr. A ask what happen. He said will come to check out on Monday (4/5). He said will drop by around 7pm-8pm. Ends up, he forget. I got no choice to ask him to come because quite urgent. All my notes in the portal and got to use it on the next day. In the end he came. Thank god... In the end, settled. Thanks to Mr. A. I really owe you many makan already. Next time I treat you.

Nightmare coming soon

My nightmare that I expected coming soon... What nightmare some people ask me. Is regarding my club. Election done. Ms. A became President of this coming term. Why I said its a nightmare? Because Ms. A weak on everything. English, computer. Whatever she want to do also ask me to help.

That day our Advisor, Ms. B ask our IPP Mr. A to give Ms. A a training. Let her to handle the meeting. But, Ms. A keep on ask me this and that. Shoot la! 1st time already like this, I can't inmagine when her term come how.

I already told her that I won't be available for 1 year. And I won't involve anything about club meeting and activities. But, she keep on say you can't leave me alone. What the... Don't she think that I got my own things to busy with? She think I 24 hours free? If she think that she can't take the post, please reject la... Why take up? Haih~

Yesterday (1/5) She called me. She told me that our Advisor called her inform her that Mr. B, will be coming back to club. Who is Mr. B? This Mr. B is a very bad person. A person our club people don't like the most. Than I ask her, why you tell me? I'm not the Board of Directors. I'm just a normal member la.

What should I do now? I don't wish she keep on call me and ask about club things. Who can give me advice what should I do?

Death and Virus

Yesterday (30/4), my bos's mother (CMSB - my part time job company) had passed away. When I heard it, I was felt sad, and think nonsense again.

Everyone will go through this process (born, old, sick and death). In my opinion, in this four categories, the most scary category is death. Why I say so? Because once a person pass away especially our most dearest family members or friends, we will feel very very sad.

The most scary part is when we got to face our own times come. This is the part that I don't even dare to face it. I felt it is very scary. After pass away, I don't know where am I will be. How many people will feel sad. Is my body going to burn or what? Really scary.

That's one more things that even make me feel more scary. That's is when one day, my parents leave me. How am I going to face it? I really scared. Without them, I feel lonely, scared. Now, although I make use of everytime, minutes and hour with them. But, I really don't wish it will happen. I don't know whether I can accept it not.

Nowadays, there's a virus called swine flu, is really scary virus. Its makes me don't dare to go anywhere. Just stay at home. I felt is more safer if I don't go out often. But, I still got to go Uni. Huh~ so scary...